[ Gansey's startled for a moment, wanting this so bad but not expecting it, that he tenses against Adam's mouth until his brain catches up with the act and he can (and does) visibly relax.
Adam's wrong, though. Gansey's not as good with words - certainly not when it counted. A lot of the time his words come out wrong or irrevocably condescending, like he means one thing and it comes out differently. Soft intentions sharpening into blades that could - and do - hurt. His words are unerring weapons, he'd said to Blue once. And much of the time he has no idea how to disarm them. It's why he's so quiet tonight. It's why he'd left Adam to his devices after they'd managed to pack up Adam's things and moved them into Monmouth.
It's why Gansey doesn't say anything now when Adam curses against his mouth. He just tilts his head back upwards, leans in, and kisses Adam this time. It isn't gentle; it isn't chaste. His mouth crushes into the other boy's with a vigor he hopes will express how he feels without having to say it aloud.
Gansey doesn't want to hurt him. He certainly doesn't want to own him.
Doesn't Adam know that he already owns Gansey in the ways it counts? ]
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Adam's wrong, though. Gansey's not as good with words - certainly not when it counted. A lot of the time his words come out wrong or irrevocably condescending, like he means one thing and it comes out differently. Soft intentions sharpening into blades that could - and do - hurt. His words are unerring weapons, he'd said to Blue once. And much of the time he has no idea how to disarm them. It's why he's so quiet tonight. It's why he'd left Adam to his devices after they'd managed to pack up Adam's things and moved them into Monmouth.
It's why Gansey doesn't say anything now when Adam curses against his mouth. He just tilts his head back upwards, leans in, and kisses Adam this time. It isn't gentle; it isn't chaste. His mouth crushes into the other boy's with a vigor he hopes will express how he feels without having to say it aloud.
Gansey doesn't want to hurt him. He certainly doesn't want to own him.
Doesn't Adam know that he already owns Gansey in the ways it counts? ]